Beauty Lies in the Beholder

She was in high school, she smiled often but often hid thoughts of the vacancy in her heart when she had to go home. She's beautiful, but at times frustrations goes in place of her determination as tear drops slide down her complacent skin but she whipes them before the world can see and replaces it with resentment as she lets her true feelings build up in her heart......Every day she stares into the mirror..she see's a flawless young lady who can have who she wants.... and then see's a mother.....she sees the countless days of going to sleep everynight wondering if shell hear her mom come through the door or maybe listen for that creep on the floor because she didnt know if she could take the responsibility anymore. Raising 3 siblings in a house with no mother no father, an empty fridge and just enough money to get by. All she wanted to do was live her high school life however she also lived the life her mother chose to leave behind. As Time flies by, right over her eyes as she dry's the tears, after she's cried for years and tries to live her own life with no guidance... literally not a soul to lead her into any direction nor to confide in....blindfolded in this battle of life yet she keeps fighting. But not just life she spent nights fearing the fights that would escalate into threats and abusive actions, because she chose the action to move in with a man who constantly overreacted, yet she stays there...staring into the mirror, tattoos that tell stories through her imagination and figure, wondering if she would be living with her abusive boyfriend if she would have grew up with a male figure.....but she didnt.....So she settled with a man that brought her closes to that image, however she chose the wrong picture as he shouts words and hits her......however she uses her mistakes as tools to build her hearts fixture....as she leaves....from here on out every promise she hears from a man is hard to believe. Every commitment is easy to leave, not a single soul can get close to she...so she just stares into the mirror....searching for answers....then says "why me"....Shes beautiful....but this isnt what she chose to be........